omgomgomg I'm so happy!! I NEED TO DO A QUICK BLOG NOW!!! SO HAPPYYYYY

I know its like insanely stupid but I'm 17 okay?? i've never gone out without my parents or a guardian with me and its embarrassing, i don't know how to cross the street properly and I can't buy stuff by myself because I never been given the opportunity to learn by my parents and tutors. Today, for the first time, I've gon out without my parents, i went out with some classmates to a nearby commercial central, we went seeing all the clothing stores to find a specific type of corset for one of my classmates but she didn't find what she wanted. I don't really care about that it was really ummm freeing i think, i feel like i'm finally not 5 anymore and that i can actually, you know, do things??? like im not an useless dependant fucking loser??? i actually didn't die???? and im aware im supposed to be doing that since, like, many years ago, but even so i still feel very proud of myself for not shitting myself in public or something like omg i did it!!!!!!!!! i was there!!!!!!!! IM!!! NOT!!! JUST!!! AN!! AUTISTIC!!! LOSER!!! PIECE!! OF!!! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tomorrow will be a free-day, we don't see classes once a week (not counting sabbath) and its really nice to have a lil break. I might do the homework i've been putting out since like two weeks ago... or not? idk i just feel veryhappy, my body is hurting so much rn i was too tense all day and my articulations were in pain walking but i can now rest!! and take my precious pills!! Also i recently got a digicam so i might share some pics from time to time, here is one of the morning sky:

i love clouds, it has been raining lately

I also went out today a bit earlier than supposed to, since we were told that today class started at 1pm but i went out by 12:15, just to see a new friend of mine from school. He was waiting for me at the plaza near school, we sat and waited a bit for another friend who came aroun 30 minutes later, she told us that the english teacher (the supposed 1pm-20:30pm class) wasn't going to give us class today since she was sick, so we decided to wander around town and mid-way to doing so we found two other schoolmates, who asked us if we were going to school that early and complained about it being empty... We walked around town and one of my classmates bought a bag of chips on the way to get to school, we arrived around 1:25pm, next (and only) class was at 2:30pm, so we went to the cafeteria and spent all those hours there taking pictures with my camera and chatting (and doing the homework for the day we didn't do before, so responsible!), I haven't had this much fun with a group of people on a long while, nor have felt this free before... Its so weird to me!! In a good way oc!! and one of my classmates did my makeup! i felt very pretty, my mom didn't like it that much tho, she said it was too much blush and softened it out a bit with her fingers

I'm still thinking of the trip after school, we went out of bio class at 4:00pm since the orientation teacher also didn't come to school and they let us leave when there is no more classes even if the day isn't done, we went to the plaza from before and decided to walk to the commercial central nearby, i forgot to ask permission to go so my mom was a bit upset but said that next time i have to remember and I apologised! She wasn't angry, just scared, "I'm getting too carefree too fast" she said "and with total strangers!! you met them two weeks ago!" I guess that was okay

It rained a little but, thankfully i had an umbrella and me and a friend who took the same route went with me to my father's work-place, he was waiting for me, smiling, i think he's proud of me being more independant but concerned over my mother's anxiety, he scolded me lightly on the elevator going home, but i don't mind, i deserved it for worrying them and i should be more carefull next time, me and my new friends were talking about making plans to go to the contact-zoo-park on the nearby city, we all know the path to go so we thought that having a picnic at the farm would be a cute hangout idea, i like picnics and animals, there are really nice monkeys in the area (native to it!) who like watermelons and carrots, there is this small booth that sells them in bags to feed the monkeys without harming them with human food, very affordable and the bags have more than enough, i like going there, i miss it honestly. I went there with my QPR and two friends and had a picnic, also went for a school assignment with him and another classmate, it was really nice

My aunt wasn't annoying today, i just saw her for 20 minutes and she left without saying goodbye again, she deffo angry at me still, but honestly i don't care, i like her not annoying me with her bullshit ngl, i might get used to it!!